Eat. Pray. Love.

I saw this movie today with my mom. I have to say..I got choked up a few times. Not out of sadness, but out of happiness I think. This woman was saying things to herself that I have said word for word in my head. I think for a good part of my adulthood (not that I'm THAT old)..I've felt lost. Looking for something to define me. I've always thought all I ever wanted was marriage and babies. Well let me clarify..a GOOD marriage..and babies. I don't want the kind of marriage where after you have the kids, that's all you talk about is the kids. I cherish the conversations I have with my husband. Now, babies. Babies has been a struggle for those of you who know me well. Even those of you who don't. I'm not very shy on the topic. You can't be. After you've been married 4 years and turn 25, it kind of becomes a topic everyone asks you about. "So, when are you having a baby?". Boy, you don't know what you're in for after asking me that.

I finally decided a few months ago to just let it all go. It's not in my control, so why have I been acting like it is this whole time? How the heck could having a baby be in my control? There's no way. So, I finally accepted that it will happen if it's supposed to. In the mean time, I want to enjoy life. I want to EAT, PRAY, and LOVE. I consider myself to be a very lucky woman. I have such an amazing husband. We're usually pretty in sync. We share so many of the same interests. We have great conversations. We truly enjoy eachothers company, we really do. Watching this movie, this movie that at times could be devastating, and at other times reminded me so much of myself, made me think so much of myself, and my husband. Ever since I was little, I've wanted to travel. France, Ireland, England, Italy, Germany, Japan, India, Australia...all places I've dreamed of going. I didn't care how I got there, I just knew one day I was going. Well, one day I will. But it won't be alone, it will be with him <3

I still don't know exactly what defines me yet. Or really if anything is supposed to define me. I just know I'm happy being me. Being his wife. Being somewhat of an artist (in my eyes, at least), being happy, being loved, being funny, being well traveled (for now, I think compared to most people my age I've been to alot of great places so far), being an unperfect perfectionist, being..Tiffany Van Ingen :)